14 days and birthday issues.

2 weeks... 14 days...336 hours. I will not count the minutes and seconds..you can estimate them yourself.

Starting at 7.11am, 12th June, Friday... I have to spend roughly 14 days myself. Being completely cut off from everyone I talk to. By 'talk' I mean, having a meaningful, funny, conversation with someone where I tell them about my day, stuff that's happening in my life..etc.

I am used to sharing those thoughts out on a near daily basis. So why this sudden change? Lot of reasons are listed behind this decision, reasons which none of my readers need to know or understand.

The only allowance I will make during this journey is a phone call twice a week made to my parents so they don't worry too much. Other than that, I will just have to manage by writing my thoughts out on my blog...and if there is stuff which I don't like to discuss in public..well.. I just have to learn to keep it to myself.

I would post up some questions that I would love to hear my readers answer..just to know their take on the situation...but who am I kidding. Lately it seems I don't have readers...I have a reader..singular..one..numero uno.

Sure, I may have a few more from time to time..but there are no guarantees there either.
I found out that I write well when I am sad... apparently being devastated awakens the writer in me...nothing like a broken heart to stir that pen up and write down my thoughts eh?

Well..if that is really true, then I guess the next two weeks, there are going to be some pretty interesting posts. Fortunately, for sake of my readers'...I will just assume that its more than one for now, for sake of their sanity, I will try not to put them under the dark cloud of despair. Will try my best to entertain as much as I can.

2 weeks is a long time. I wonder if I can manage to live through it...am quite sure that 14 days will wind up being 7-10 days max...I know that. But still..thats long enough.

The funny part here is..guess whose birthday's coming up..and falling in that 14 day deadline. I hated it back then, but right now, I would give anything to be in a room full of my friends, cutting a cake, and accepting ridiculous gifts. Yes, ridiculous..I got 8 monopoly board games once...8. What the hell do I do with 8 monopoly board games..this was..I dunno..12-15 years ago?

The last birthday I spent with my "friends" was around 7 years ago..back in my highschool days. After that somehow, the day just lost its significance.

10 days left before I turn 24 years old.. 24 years having passed by... the earth having revolved around the sun 24 times since my birth. Whoop-te-doo.

I can predict whats going to happen...
I will wake up, hear a few "happy birthday" greetings. Say "thank you" ..almost like I am trained to respond every time I hear a "happy birthday".

Go to college, submit my assignments, come back..a little amused, a little upset at the fact that no one in college knew... come back, maybe get a phone call from the parents by now...talk with them for a while... might get something from my love, maybe it might cheer me up, but with the state I am in currently, very few things can bring a smile on my face. I wonder if I will get any cake this year... its probably not a good sign when I can't recall the last time I had cake on my birthday.

Not really a concern I guess. Too busy to celebrate anyway. The day after that, another submission, so will probably be busy working throughout the day, have a quick dinner in my room and doze off.

Whats so special about a birthday anyway..its just another day. The only thing special is that you actually are keeping track of how OLD you are getting...just what I need. A reminder of how I have wasted 5 years of my life..and while I should be married by now, am still stuck doing a bachelor's degree in a field that I never ..and still don't...consider as a career.

The only good thing about this birthday will be that another year of my life is over...
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the good part about that? I will sit and wonder whether that one year I spent..was it worth it? was it memorable? Basically, that will make a good post.

That's about it.



I may post again today..I may not. Depends if I am in the writing mood. Going out today... need to buy certain things. Anything to take my sorrow away for a while.